For my Angel chap 42

 Note: no thing to do with this update...ok, I updated in Desire blog, a last chapter, I know that I decided to stop Desire FF but I wrote already this part before this decision, so I just post it...

 He Can't!!?...

His heart’s beats increased hearing those words from her…
A baby?
Who doesn’t want a baby from the woman he loves the most?
Who is the man refusing to fulfill the dearest desire of a lovely wife?
It’s first: Her right!
A baby from him, her husband is her legal right!
Silently,
He puts the protection on his manhood as it’s a familiar gesture…
-we will talk later!...Please!
He said looking straight at her eyes, kissing her lips…
-I can’t Arnavji…first, tell me…
Both are in the verge…so, he couldn’t stop to talk about this matter now…he just holds her by her waist to make her lay down…and he comes on the top of her…
He kissed her all over her face, her breasts…touching her everywhere with so much…so much love…
He puts all the love of his soul on those kisses…
Khushi arched her neck giving him full access…he kisses her from her neck…kissing lower and lower…to the bottom…more into the bottom…
she forgets about her request, she forgets waiting for his answer and she moaned as he kissed her inner thighs…warmly…
-let me love you first…talk latter!
With that he just introduced himself inside her…penetrating her gently…she moaned…holding his neck…
-Arnavj…please…
-shhh don’t think about anything else but our love!
-mmm…yes…
-yes!
-love me…
-just open your eyes, I want to see how much you’re beautiful…how much you love me!
Arnav thrusts deeper and deeper inside her…loving her whole body honestly and patiently…
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Khushi was now totally naked in his arms…she slept…he couldn’t take his hands off her and he made love to her for a second time…and this exhausted her too much…
But the fact was he wouldn’t escape this topic for a second time…
She needs to have her own baby and it will be pure selfishness from him if he just refused…
For that he needs to give her reasons…
And what he will tell her?
He’s scared to lose her?
Babies are his nightmare!???
He couldn’t live that experience anymore!
Not after the death of Louise!
Not after what he felt when Anjeli has difficulties with her delivery…
Not after reading about all those kind of accidents that could happen in the operating rooms…at the delivery time…
He’s not ready to lose her, damn it!
Now, that he has all the happiness in between his arms…
-no!
He whispered, hugging her more to him…
-please, khushi, I will die if something bad happened to you!...we are happy like this!
He looks at her sleeping innocently…and he kissed all over her face…he couldn’t resist not to kiss her parted lips…
-Arnavji…
She murmured and opens one eye:
-what happened?
-nothing baby…just sleep…I’m here!...I love you so much!
-mmm
She smiles all sleepy and hides her face in the hook of his neck…
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-it’s really a great show!
Arnav opens difficultly his eyes to meet his wife’s eyes…
-I watched you sleeping…you’re adorable…and cute!
-really?
He asked amused with his hot husky voice…and she blushed immediately but she has to talk to him…about the baby…she couldn’t have an answer yesterday…what if he doesn’t want a baby from her?
-hey!
He pulled her chin to make her look at him as she’s totally lost in her thoughts…
-Arnavji! You don’t want our baby?...you putted it!
She said the last sentence nervously and little out loud…
-shh…I said we will talk…
-I thought we don’t need to talk about this…I’m…I’m great mum, right?…and you’re a great paa…our baby will be so much happy…he has a beautiful little sister too…he’s lucky…
Arnav looks at her and couldn’t find any words…
He couldn’t break her dreams just because he’s scared, damn it!
-could we do it, again, without anything?
She blushed…and smiles shyly…
-khushi! what happened? Why you’re impatient to have a baby?
That’s it!
He hurts her…her smile vanished…how to explain, he’s panicked, he’s sorry…
-impatient?...no!...but I waited lots and Lily too…she wants a sister! She told me! and I want a baby…our baby…we need to complete our family…I want our baby that you only could make it for me because I love you and you love me… lots!
He doesn’t answer but he just looks at her…
‘’I want our baby that you only could make it for me because I love you and you love me lots”
Dear God…how to refuse!
-and what if I lost you?...then…what will I do?...you said it…I love you so much and if something bad happened to you, because of the baby, then; khushi, I will not be able to handle it!
He said with so much pain, not looking at her…just laying on the bed…he runs his fingers in his hair…
-what?
Khushi couldn’t understand…she comes on the top of him, sitting on him, she cupped his face to make him look at her…
-something bad because of the baby?...the baby will not harm me Arnavji!
He looks at her with a desperate gaze…
-what I lived in the past! I can’t and I won’t live it again…it will just kill me, this time!
-Arnavji! Why you’re supposing the worst!...you lost Lily’s mother that way, it doesn’t mean that this will also happen to me too…it’s her destiny…it’s God’s will…you can’t control this Arnavji and if it’s in my destiny to die…you couldn’t stop this…by stopping me to get pregnant!
-I just can’t!
She looks at him shocked:
-Fine!
She said this and gets up immediately…
She’s wearing his t-shirt but she just takes it off and throws it at him…she’s totally naked before him but she doesn’t care…she just walks to the bathroom…
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She’s doing this only to provoke him…
She knew how much he loves the red and she’s wearing the red saree…his favorite!
her hair was curly and that made her even more young…she has the prettiest and most delicate face ever…
the red lipstick was just so sexy for a woman already beautiful like her…she’s to kill!
and on the top she’s not ready to talk to him…
all the breakfast time, he’s trying to communicate with her…but…she’s doesn’t even look at him once…
she finally stands up…
-mmm…Nani, I’m going!
-yes, beteya, may god protect you my dear!
Khushi is no more Lily’s miss now…lily is in another class…but the way is the same…no thing changed…
But this morning, khushi is just not in the mood to go with him in the same car like every morning…
She wants to breathe some fresh air…and to clear her head and calm herself…
She knows he’s dying to talk to her…but he’s too much! She’s not able to imagine he told her that he can’t! Yet, he can make love to her morning and night and midnight and noon but having a baby…this! He can’t!
They are before the car when she doesn’t get in…he looks at her gesturing her to get in…
-khushi!
-I need to walk!...you go and drop Lily!
-what?
His expression changed and he becomes all angry:
-into the car khushi and immediately!...you imagine that I will let you go to the school by your own?
-why not?
-Khushi!
He’s like scandalized…khushi is enjoying little bit to make him lose his mind!
-maa!
Lily gets out of the car…ohh…why my Lily?...now, she can’t play at this and made Arnav lose it…Lily is a smart girl and she will understand that something is going on…and khushi don’t want this to happen…
-what my angel?...just get in
-and you?
-me too! Come on! We are late!
Arnav took a deep breath…thanking lily from the core of his heart…
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A woman can’t force her man to have a baby!
This only could happen if both want this…
Khushi knows very well that if she wants to have the baby…she will succeed, right now and here, she knows that Arnav is ready to give her what she wants… but here it’s not the problem!
The problem is her husband now!
Don’t he wants to have another baby? Their baby?
She’s dying to have another copy of him…a little Arnav…same thick and soft hair…oh and this angry gaze…
-why you’re wearing this specific saree to go to school?
He asked looking throw the rearview mirror if Lily is interested or not with their conversation but she’s so much busy looking throw the car window…
-and why not to wear it?
She knows that this saree is their saree and she knows that he loves it and that he finds it so sexy on her and he asked her to not wear it before anyone but him…
-khushi…why you’re behaving this way?!
-how this way?
-you’re doing so much effort to make me angry!
-because you make me angry!
-you know how much I love you!
He whispered…they reached the school and he stopped the car…
She looks straight in his eyes…
-Love can’t be weak and can’t exist within the fear, Arnavji!
With that she gets out of the car…and Lily too…and Arnav just look at the smartest and most beautiful lady of his heart walking with so much confidence…
-khushi! khushi! what should I do to you, damn it!