for my angel chap 34

 For my angel: chap 34:

Game over

Lily in the middle hugging her paa and sleeping…

Khushi looking at them sleeping but she was so excited that she couldn’t find the sleep…he was there…her husband was there and sleeping between them, anew…

She knew she will miss him but doesn’t imagine that it will be at that extent… that she wasn’t able to take her eyes off of him…

He’s sleeping profoundly…thought he doesn’t sleep well there…but here when he’s beside them, in his bed and with his family…he’s sleeping like a baby…

Khushi holds his hand…she doesn’t seem able to sleep…leaving behind her this sight of him sleeping…

Her heart was beating so fast at the thought that he’s here now…

Here…

With her…

He moved a little…and like that he uncovered himself a little… khushi smiled and pulled up the quilt on him…looking at his handsome face…she couldn’t resist not touching him…

He groaned and then opens his eyes a little…whispering “khushi”…

Khushi gasped and moved back but at her surprise…he holds her wrist…

He opens his eyes…and then he moved in the center of the bed…taking lily in the other side of him, still hugging his tiny baby…he smiles and pulled khushi also to him in the other side…

Her head rests in his chest…she could hear his heart’s beats…

She felt his warm breath on her hair…

-I was so tired that I slept like that…

He said huskily…his voice…thanks to his tiredness becoming the sexiest thing she ever heard…it gives goose bumps…

She felt his hand playing with her hair…

-and you? Why you’re not sleeping?

Khushi looks up at him…

-I loved your surprise…thank u for coming…

-why you can’t give an honest and brief answer?

She keeps looking at him…

-you should just say that you’re so happy and excited  I ‘m back that you couldn’t sleep?

Khushi looks at him all shocked…how he comes to know that??? And then she looks down and places her head again on his chest…

-it’s ok…

He pulled her more to him…and kissed in between her hair…

-look at me…I want to see you!

The moment she looked at him…he placed a kiss on her nose…and smiles to her…

-I missed this face…

With the tips of his fingers he touched all over her face…

No matter how much she’s shy…but she holds his hand and placed a kiss right on his palm…hiding her pretty face with his same hand…

Arnav’s heart melts…and that’s it for him…he wanted to kiss her…

He looks once at lily who is sleeping and he just turned to khushi’s side…cupped her face and kissed her lips, so slowly and so softly…taking his sweet time…he waited for that and more than that…

He then smiled looking at her closed eyes…

He kissed her forehead…

He should stop…lily is also there and he couldn’t do more this night…it’s a familial night…

not this night! He convinced himself and for more courage, both look at lily…understanding each other…

Arnav  placed Lily again between them…but khushi still could place her head on his chest…

Finally, after that much needed ultimate kiss…both could sleep peacefully…

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Smelling good…

Smelling delicious…

Smelling home…

Arnav opens his eyes…

Lily was painting just on his tummy…

Very good…

The paper placed on his tummy…favorite desk of Miss Lily Raizada …right?

Arnav smirked…

-lily…I can’t believe you’re doing this to me…

-Paa…look!

Arnav looks at the “welcome paa” hand written by his own baby…with plenty of stars and little hearts…drawn by her only…

So…he just hugs her…

-baby…you grow up so fast…my brilliant baby…writing by herself…you write so well…look at this “W” dear God and this “p”…oh my goodness…

-paa…it’s my maa who teaches me…all this…

Lily said amused…holding his papaa …

-I know…I know baby…

Arnav stands up lifting his lily:

-and where is your maa?

-kitchen!

-kitchen…of course…I should know!

He smiles…

-my angel...you go first because…see…I have to change and all!

-yeah paa…sure!

She nodded and then kissed his cheek and runs out of there…

-my baby grows up fast damn it! and that “sure”!

Arnav smiles and then went to the shower…

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Downstairs…

It was like he was in some parties…

The table was full of yummy foods…

All decorated…with flowers from the garden…

-royal breakfast for my chote…

Here comes Anjeli and hugs him soooo tight…and nani comes too…Arnav kissed her forehead and side hug the two ladies…

-chote…all this is made by khushi only…so, I think that all kisses and hugs should be reserved to her!

Anjeli pointed to him khushi who comes with another plate in her hands…

Arnav was mesmerized by the beauty personified…

-all is ready!

She said…looking at them and then…her smile vanished looking at Arnav gaze…

She is wearing an orange saree and she looks absolutely stunning…

She planned to wear this…the day he will come and here she’s wearing it, today…she wanted to look all beautiful for him…all elegant…she wanted that…she doesn’t know why she spent more time before the mirror, this morning…looking if he will like that…if he will love this…and his one gaze makes her feel satisfied…

And then second test, if he will like or not what she prepared for him…

Today even Buaji was there to share the breakfast with them…and so, khushi was happiest woman ever…

After serving them…

She sits in the middle between Lily and Buaji…

Arnav was little disappointed…even she wasn’t before him…so, he was little…not so…happy with that but still…

With the family…he knows how things are not like he wants…but it was ok…

He enjoyed all what he eats…made from her…

He knows how she’s making so many efforts to make all this for him…from sweets to sour… from light to heavy…

Even she cuts the fruits in an elegant manner…

Anjeli was right…it was a royal breakfast…the most delicious that he ever tastes…

Khushi looks time to time at him…and when she looks that he is looking all the way at her…she was all the way blushing furiously…

Arnav:-that was really...

She looks at him…waiting what he goanna said…

-really delicious…simply delicious…

He said all amused…and happy…clearly happy…

-yummy…

Said lily sacking her thumb…

All laugh at this comment and all start commenting on khushi skills at cooking and that they are discovering a new kitchen chef…

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Arnav couldn’t believe that…

They went to school…

Like it wasn’t a special day today…

Yes…they went…while he took the day off…to spend it with them…

He knows that he’s so much to think like an egoist man…

It was Monday after all…

But…even…he was little angry for that…he couldn’t even show them their gifts…

He wasn’t in the mood to work either…he was lazy and feeling like not to do anything but lay in the bed and wait for them…

He heard them coming…but he doesn’t move…he takes a book and starts reading on it…

-paa…we come…mum too comes here…

Khushi comes also to see him in the room…but he said just “hi” to them…a cold “hi”…

Lily has no problem with that…

She just jumps on the bed and hugged her paa…but khushi was troubled…seeing his cold expression…

It was the tea time but he refused to come have a tea or a coffee with them…and that makes khushi more troubled…

-what happened Arnavji?

-nothing!

She just closes the door of their room…and then she sits on the bed with them…looking at him only…

 Ar:-lily…my angel…could go and see if Aryan wants to play or no?

Lily looks at her paa:

-ok…I will and if he wants to play with me, I will play with him!

-of course baby…Aryan is your bro…you should always play with him!...ok?

Lily nodded smilingly…and runs out of the room…

All the courage Khushi has in Lily presence…she lost right now…but in the contrary of her imagination…Arnav didn’t do anything… he looks finally at her…

-I have work to do in the study room…

She was disappointed…same time, thinking how to retain him…thinking why he’s behaving like this…the moment he starts walking away from her…

She couldn’t but hug him from behind to retain him…

Even with all her natural skills to be a good mum and a responsible teacher…Khushi is still a little child…

Emotional like never and nervous like never…she holds him too tight…closing her eyes tight…she hasn’t any explanation to give about this…nor to herself, neither to him…

She considered his presence as danger…

But then when he goes away she felt like to cry…and needed to retain him…

-you’re angry…I’m the reason?

-no!

He felt also guilty about his childish behavior…

-Arnavji…I consider you as my family…

That was really…good but…not enough…he was the perfect father and then the husband (the official husband that she could cook for him and miss him) and then the family…what he needed more???...

Ar:-that’s …good!

He said and wanted to move away…

Something in his pride wants her to cross all the limits for him…and tell him….more…

He said it all…he does more than he should do and now: her turn!

-Arnavji…please…

As a man he did the first step…all the first steps needed…to make her confident…

Kh:-could you please...stay…I’m feeling like…like I don’t deserve you…

-what?

He almost screams and turns to face her…

Kh:-you deserve much better…I mean…I know…I couldn’t be that wife you deserve!...I couldn’t even understand you…now…that you’re upset…I can’t understand why…

He looks at her with questioning eyes…

-I…can see how perfect you are…but I’m not!...I’m…when I…I thought…about both of us…all the barriers ….all the differences…I…

-you thought about all this now? This moment? Khushi there is something?

Yes this moment…the moment she held him…and felt him against her…all the emotions of insecurities come out…

-I’m…maybe…we should think again about our relation…I mean…

-I can’t believe!...I really can’t…

He just said angrily and left the room…

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It was true that with him…she felt strong as much as weak…

And when he acted that way with her…she felt so weak and that was the reaction: being the scared child all over again…

The same one scared of being alone…the same one scared of being left behind…the same one scared of darkness…the same poor and weak girl…

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Arnav in the other hand was going crazy…

He felt paralyzed…

He did all to make her feel him…but in one second she revealed all what she really thinks…

She doesn’t TRUST HIM…

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Silently, they have their dinner…

After dinner…

Arnav gives everyone a little gift from his travel…it was like that when he went to any trip…he should give this little things to his family…but stubborn like he is…he wouldn’t give khushi anything…

-chote…we understand why you didn’t give Khushi’s gift before us!...thought her gift is way more precious and special than ours!

Anjeli teased…knowing that yes…Arnav…had for her a special…really precious gift…kind of ASR gifts style…

Arnav gives a light smile to his sister and went to his study room…not saying anything…

He was angry…plus: upset…

The first time…he’s feeling unable…thought, he forgets how to make a woman fall for him…

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In their room…

Arnav was waiting for her…

Finding her in Lily's room...He asked her to come…once she makes lily sleep...

He decided to show her his real face!

Let’s make her believe who is the boss in here…she still thinks that they should think again about their relation….

Oh…yes…of course…their relation is still missing something very important…that real possessiveness…passion…desire…Love! Love...

making sure she will understand that she belongs to him only and she own him for real…

With her coming inside the room…he just locks the door with key…

She looks at him…troubled…

-I have enough!

He said with his angry expression ...walking towards her…

-Game over!...enough of all this!           

He took her by waist…

-you’re mine!

He seems losing his mind…looking at her …she’s looking down…and when she looked up at him…she was crying…

-crying again???...why Khushi????... What did I say  or do to make you cry??? Did I hurt you…Damn it! …but I…I really…Khushi…I LOVE you damn it!

He said holding her shoulders aggressively and making her all dumb…

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