Part 36:


Arnav can't believe this…
Not once… not twice… not third… this is the fourth time…she's doing that to him…
Him…Arnav Singh Raizada…!
If she thinks that this time, he will be that soft, gentleman…than, she's wrong!...totally wrong! He was kind, he was generous…he was changing…he opens his heart…and for who?...for what??...for someone like her!…someone who is more scared than him to show his real emotions…
If she's thinking that he will not be able to know where she's…why she left that way…that day…then also, she's totally wrong…
Aman, her so called faithful friend told him everything!
Damn! Even Aman trusts him, has noticed how much he's changing, everyone knows that but her…still had a doubt…still scared…still…
Her father has a heart attack!
Was a good reason for her to leave! Why she doesn't told him that:
"Arnav''ji'', my dear father is sick because he knows about you and now, I'm f**** leaving you!" that what she should tell him!
Why all that drama!???
That letter…
He just burns it…
Firstly, he spends that night, when he discovers the letter, in the hell…but finally, he has no doubt that nothing, no one will stop him from getting her back…
Why she's allowing to Aman to help her and not him!
Oh! Yes!...excuse me! ''We don't need your financial help'' but it's ok we can accept the help of Aman!...maybe, he doesn't prove enough to her that he's her husband! He has the right, the full right to give her everything she needs!
Why?????
Why? Damn it!
He tries his best!...nothing was missed…he knew that family is important but isn't he her family, too?
She's in the hospital, now!
He has all her news, all what she did throw not only Aman (because he hates him right now, he's handling his presence, forcibly and when he comes to know that she calls that Mr. Aman and not him, he doesn't care about their friendship or his trust in Aman but then, he really wants to beat him) but also throw his man, he sends his private bodyguard there, but, damn, that man is stupid…
And this is their call conversation, every morning and every evening, looks like that:
-Sir, she's in the room with her father and her mother…yes, mother!
-what are they doing?
-crying!
-and her?
-her mother?
-no! … Khushi !
-she can't stop crying…she's crying!
-Ok! Anything else happened with her! You call me back! You never move from there! You just follow her and if she needs help, don't does anything just call me!
Gosh! Now, he has to know how she is from people!…from a strange man!…all that because of her!…but she doesn't know…she don't has any idea about how much she hurts him using those words of '' If you was meaning all what you does and said to me, in the previous days…'' really?...so she thinks he was acting or what?...she was the one who was acting, then…??...did he hurt her that much to that she wasn't able to see that his care, his concern, and his transformation were sincere?
When he remembers that hug that night when she was planning to leave him…that kiss!...he should know that she's planning something to run away…god! She promised she will never do this again!
But, for now, he was just waiting for her father to be fine and then…then…he will just bring her back to him! And once, she is with him…then…if she can't decide that running from him is a sin then he will force her to believe it…if she will not trust him, for good…he knows a very good way to make this mission accomplished…if she thinks that he was sleeping when she said that precious I LOVE YOU than she has to repeat that again and again and again to that he can forgive her… forgive that stupid letter!
Arnav smirked at this idea…actually, the only thing supporting him till now…is those three magical words…he's certain that now, he has her heart, she do love him…so, she, now, can do whatever she wants and be stubborn all the time that she needs!…he, also, will do whatever he want and be !
He told Aman to arrange everything for them all…the hospital, the house, everything without saying to khushi anything concerning him…he knows she will refuse!...she's crazy!
But, his punishment is to don't be present for her, by her side when he knows she needs him, right now! …and if she really needs him, she has to tell him…but what she did was just rejecting him…deleting him from her life…she never called!
Fine! So, she's waiting for him to call, to come, like every time, running to find her!
Really?
What an arrogant and childish girl!

Love is blind!
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Half of the tears of Khushi was for her sick father and the other half was because of him…her Arnavji…she can't believe that she will never see him, again…she's not believing that till now, he doesn't look for her…he doesn't try to call her…she can't believe that he just follow what she writes in the letter…but, it was better like this…if he wants to forget her than…it will be good for the two of them…but, she missed him so badly…She wants to hug him…she wants to cry in his arms…
-Khushi!
-Mum!
Her mum come with two hot mugs of coffee…and sits beside Khushi…
Khushi pauses her head on the shoulder of her amma and she just cry, again:
-tell me what he did to you! I'm sorry bitiya, I'm sorry! We were worried but we can't do anything when you call us you told that you're fine!
-and I'm fine, mum, I was fine with him!
-what? But he just married you for revenge! He just wants you because you're our daughter!
Khushi wipes her tears …and looks at her mum:
-it was the case but after that…mum…after that, things change…very quickly!
Priya arched her eyebrow…she was angry…
-things change?
-yes, mum, we…we wanted to be with each other, forever!
-really?
-yes, mum!...oh! if you know him, I'm sure, you will love him…first impression is really wrong…you have to know him…to speak with him and then…mum…then…I'm sure, you too will adore him, just like me!
-so, you adore him?!
-Mum and how not? I told, mum, he's my everything, now, he's…
Khushi starts talking nonstop, about him! Her mother was staring at her…amused to find her girl…for the first time, happy, after, she comes here and see them…
-this is cannot be! You can't love him!
-Mum?!!! Mum! You can't understand, I can't live without him!
Priya can't act that she's angry anymore, she wanted to tease her daughter because she's missing her innocence, she wants her to tell everything about her husband…she knows if she will just ask her about her feelings, she will be shy and she will not told her anything properly but now, she opened her heart…
-My baby girl…I'm sure he's a good man to make your eyes shining like this!
Khushi smiles and hugs her mother and then back to her sad expression:
-but now, all that is just a memory mum…we can't be together anymore!
-what? He told you so?
-No! but I know that!...it's me who told him to go away!
-what? Why you asked him that? ...are you crazy?... If you're saying to me that both of you are considering yourselves as a married couple, that he's repenting about that forced marriage, that you can't live without him…than Khushi…if you're happy with him…than…how can you reject all this?
-Mum! But…dad?...when you called me, you told me that he has the heart attack after knowing that Arnav is Arnav Singh Raizada…the son of…
-you father is tired, Khushi and that since many years!...he has always nightmares and he's always thinking about that…but he never told me about his matter with the Raizada's family, in the past….he just told me after having you…and to divorce him…I wasn't able…you know why?...I love him…but I'm always taking you away…after all, your dad destroys that family Khushi and had all that money because he was…
-don't mum! I know!
-and then Khushi…I think….I don't learn to you how much love is important….family is important but you know, now, with him, you will build your family too!...don't act like kids! Call him!
-Mum! No!
-no?
-he will never forgive me! He never called, it means maybe…
-maybe what? …maybe my daughter doesn't want to fight to be happy! Maybe, you want to create faked reasons because you know you're wrong! Ufff…. Really! You! Young people! I just can't understand… you know I will never had left the house of my husband like that…without having his permission and you want him to call you, too?...Awww! Khushi! I'm tired!
Priya holds her head…
-Mum! You know, I have the same conversation with my mother-in-law, once! Mum…she's cool too!
-cool? Choose your words properly, Khushi!
Khushi smiles but thinking about her mother in law, of the complication of the situation…she won't…she can't call him…what she will say….???...and, she's sure, he told them about her…sure that he wants to forget her, by now and if she calls him…definitely this will bother him and bother all the family…Anjeli doesn't call her too…sure! He told them everything!...every time, she asks Aman, he told that he doesn't know anything…she's sure he does! 
*****
Khushi spends two weeks with her father in the hospital…
Most of the time, she's awake in nights and nights seem to be very long…away from him…
So cold, away from his arm…from his warm embrace…she tapes many messages that she doesn't send…she writes even another letter and then finds that it will be so stupid!
She daydream about him…every time, she looks at her mangalsutra, she remembers him…his voice still in her ear… ''you trust me Khushi?'', ''promise me!'', ''say you want me…'' and it's enough of her to start crying…she knows no one will help her…forgetting him was a case that she lost already without even trying…
He's on every parcel of her being…
He has marked her to the last inch of her soul…of her heart, of her body…
He's the kind of man that you can't escape from him, even, if you're miles and miles away from him…
Her heart still beating only for him…
Her soul was, to the eternity affected by his love…
Her mind is dominated by only his image…
And even her body is missing his arms…
Even when she applied the sindoor…it affect her…she remembered that time he applied it to her…his eyes…his sincerity…when she wears her bangles…when she wears her clothes…when she looks at her face in the mirror, when she takes her shower, when she eats, when she sleeps…nothing related to her wasn't affected by his touch…his smell…his memory….everything reclaim him…call for him!
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Arnav was living the same emotions…but with a little bit of anger…and frustration…impatience!
He was asking why she doesn't take any of her clothes…everything was there in the wardrobe…
She wants him to be more pathetic and desperate! That's the point!
Because, every time, he opens that wardrobe, and saw that
Creamy saree…remembers the sindoor, the bangles, the mehendi, her angry eyes…her insupportable silence…her, being stubborn…
Black saree…remembers those innocent eyes…the way she asks him about her heart beats and how she was cute after getting drunk…and then their famous shower…
red saree…remembers their dance, their raining hug…her bloody kiss…
and then seeing his white kurta…her little stuffs…her books, perfumes…makeup…seeing one bangle of hers, makes him fuming…
Khushi!
Every morning and night was a hard exam for him…he decided to take his clothes of that wardrobe and put them on the sofa to not have to be affected, every time…but, it wasn't really the solution…because, she is on him, she lives in his mind and soul…when he closes his eyes, is her face that he saw…her eyes…her smile…the way she talks to him…the way she makes his heart beats so fast…the way she learns him that his heart exist…he can love!
Khushi!
and then, every night, he was feeling that he will break the bed, soon…unable to sleep, he keeps turning in the left and then in the right and then in his side form the bed and then in her side and when he smells her soft fragrance in the pillow or he has the impression of that…he comes back to his side…all that by making big moves of someone desperate and then he takes that phone to just order the bodyguard to just kidnap her and bring her, right now, to him…but, he repents, he has to wait!
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In the office:
-for how much time, you will stay away from each other, ASR? It's unfair to see that every one of you don't have the courage to…
-The courage? I do have…but, I can't use it for someone who can't assume her feelings!
-what do you mean, now! It's over?
Arnav lost his mind, hearing that:
-oh! You like it to be over?
-god! Of course not! ASR!
-you're happy that you're the angel in this story, right?
-what?...Arnav, please don't be like that, I'm…
-if I should be the evil, in this story then I'm ready!
Aman chooses the wrong moment to speak with Arnav…after a sleepless night and two meetings, he was so tired…and the simple thought that Aman can hear her voice, whenever he wishes to…that set the fire on him…he just stands up, takes the car's keys and went out of the room…:
-Arnav!
-get lost!
-where are you going?
Arnav was walking, he takes the elevator…not looking at Aman, just once, but he answers:
-LUCKNOW!
Aman retains his smile…hiding his happiness…
-you're going to khushi?
-not your business!
-so, you're going to her, now???
Arnav keeps silent…in the parking he opens the door of his car…Aman was always waiting for his answer:
-just try to call her or try to tell her that I'm in my way to Lucknow and that will be your end Mr. Aman Dogra!...Believe me! I can kill you!
Aman smiles hearing that, he winks to Arnav, showing his thumb …
Arnav smirks:
-you're unbelievable!